The feel of his shirt against my elbow, the fact that I still had an elbow.

Then everything started to seem perfect for some reason. Rickie: That does have the ring of truth.Īngela: We both stopped talking. You want Jordan Catalano, in actuality, because.there is no 'because'! You just want him! Only you're programmed to never admit it. Rayanne: I totally and completely disagree. I don't know - maybe I'd rather have the fantasy, than even him. And if you make it real, it, it's not the same. Rayanne: Right, so? Angela: So, it keeps me going, or something, like I need it, just to get through the day. I keep wondering if there's like, a term for this.Īngela: I'm not e, there's thinking about him, right? Which is what I do, all the time, like, like this. Like one of those dogs that point? I'll keep talking and stuff, but my mind won't even know what I'm saying. Angela: If Jordan Catalano is, like, nearby, my entire body knows it. People throwing themselves at people? Is, like, the basis of civilization. How much more can we take? Angela: I just don't want to look like I'm throwing myself at him. Rayanne: You have got to progress to the next phase of this. Which I hope doesn't like, mean something. All of them were people I never saw again. Dancing in the Dark Angela: I've been kissed 3 times. Rayanne: It hurts to look at you? Rickie: How'd you think of that? Rayanne: Where would it hurt? Rickie: I really like that. Angela: You're so beautiful, it hurts to look at you. Rayanne: Do I know you? Rickie: No, like, for real. Rickie: If you were about to do it, okay, what would you want the other person to say, like, right before? Rayanne: This won't take long. It's like saying, 'How was that drive-by shooting?' You don't care how it was, you're lucky to get out alive. Either sex or a conversation - ideally both.Īngela: My parents keep asking how school was. Angela: I just like how he's always leaning. Angela: Who? Rayanne: Who? Jordan! Catalano? Come on, I'm not going to tell anyone, just admit it.

The sad truth is, my breasts have come between us. She was talking about my life.Īngela: My dad and I used to be pretty tight. 'Cause she wasn't just talking about my hair. So when Rayanne Graff told me my hair was holding me back, I had to listen. Can't people just cheer on their own? Like to themselves?. Like you have to pretend you don't notice them noticing you.Like cheerleaders. Even your best friend.Like, with boys, like they have it so easy. Just how people are - how they always expect you to be a certain way. Just 'cause it seemed like if I didn't, I would die, or something.Things were getting to me. Season 1 Pilot Angela: So, I started hanging out with Rayanne Graff, just for fun.

1.19 In Dreams Begin Responsibilities.

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